One of the definitions of express is to squeeze. We can squeeze to fit in or we can squeeze to draw something out of ourselves. Situations that feel like they are squeezing us or throwing us into chaos are trying to help us express our whole selves.
How afraid we can be of owning all aspects and parts of ourselves. Anything, but that! is what people say when I suggest that they write or speak about a frozen moment in their lives or about certain feelings someone told them it wasn't okay to have/feel. I don't want to relive the past. Why bring that up again?
Chaos like the kind we have been experiencing these past few years is trying to bring what is buried to the surface. Intimacy begins when we speak of the parts of ourselves that we have abandoned, cut off, sent away, betrayed or buried in the name of keeping the peace, not upsetting anyone or not getting hurt.
We long and yearn for wholeness yet we refuse to do the one thing which would make us whole. Which is to speak the truth about ALL parts of ourselves.
Do you ever feel like you are telling the same story over and over? Do you ever feel like you don't want to be controlled by the past? Do you ever feel like "I should just be able to let that go," or "I'm stuck in a story."?
Do you ever think that you just want to get rid of pain not feel more of it? I've heard people say "Why would I want to write/talk about that- it's just going to bring up more pain?"
What is the root of that pain? For many of us, it's from not being seen, heard or understood. Finding a truthful way to tell your story is one of the most empowering things you can do for yourself.
Understanding which story wants to be told at this moment in time and which story will connect you with your audience is one of the most powerful things you can do for for your tribe. The intimate act of baring yourself in front on audience is not just for yourself. I bring this up because people have told me it's selfish or manipulative
to spill their guts. Spilling your guts is a requirement for anyone who has strong Apollo energy.
Some people I know who have been reluctant to spill their guts have received Vulture as a spirit animal. We may hold our feelings in for so long, that we end up spewing them out in a "toxic" fashion. We can choose to spill our guts knowing that doing so is nourishing for us - that what we hold in can kill our spirit. What we may not be able to see is how spilling our guts is nourishing for other people. There is where Vulture and Pigeon come in. They can find what is nourishing in those spilled guts. We do not get to choose for other people what is nourishing for them. Holding in our truth may not only be starving us it can be starving those around us of true connection and intimacy.
Writing and telling stories helps so unfreeze the stuck moments in our lives.
When I heard that my father had shock treatments, I read up on them. I asked him "How does a machine know which memories to erase to which ones to keep?" "It doesn't." he replied.
How does a writer know which memories to keep? You'll find out as you start to write. You may have an idea for a story in mind however during my Tell Your Story workshop the story that wants you to tell it will come to the surface. The story that you've been avoiding telling may be why you feel something is missing or why you feel flawed, damaged or not whole. Telling that story will bring the whole YOU center stage.
As I said earlier - We long and yearn for wholeness yet we refuse to do the one thing which would make us whole. Which is to speak the truth about ALL parts of ourselves. Stop trying to heal and start speaking your truth aloud.
Especially the truth (or the feelings) you are afraid to speak aloud. The one(s) that you are worried "What will people think of me, if I say this?" btw - Those of us that act like we don't care what people think about us- often care most of all.
I am deeply feeling and sensitive and I let my Rebel lead for way too many years. I can help you discover your primary Archetypes and help you write and tell your story from all parts of yourself- not just the one that talks the loudest.
We are doing this in my Tell Your Story workshop which begins on October 14th. In case you missed my earlier newsletter telling you why I created this workshop - here it is ...
I know that some of you have been either trying to write your story or have written one but have not yet spoken it out loud or shared it publicly. Because I know that Courage comes when you need it - not before! - I decided to create an offering to help you with this.
I have created a provocative Tell Your Story workshop. I need you to know that this is a "safe space" only insofar as all your feelings are welcome. I will be acting like a midwife coaching you to birth your story- which might feel hard or scary! It doesn't have to be :)
You will speak and write what you may have been afraid or nervous to share - because you may have fear you will be judged or that something is wrong with you for feeling or wanting to express your true feelings about your parents, lovers, children, friends etc.
I will be using writing for solo performance techniques which are so powerful for helping you cut through the "I don't want to make any one look bad" and/or "I don't want to blame anyone," lingo and help you get to the truth that you want to express that will connect you with your audience.
This workshop is about personal truth - it's not about absolute truth.
The first part of Tell Your Story is 4 weeks long. We will meet every week for 2 hours. You will receive 15 minutes of 1:1 time with me each week.
You will be reading your writing out loud. I will be coaching you live as you are reading. The group will not be giving feedback to each other because this isn't about we like or don't like - it's about getting each of you deeper into your emotional truth.
We are not doing this in therapy mode as my teacher said we are not writing to heal- we are writing to tell our emotional truth. And sometimes telling that truth opens up more things we may have been trying to ignore or get rid of.
You will learn lots from observing each person breakthrough to expressing their truth. You will laugh and cry. This may or may not be fun for you. I don't want you to quit or give up on yourself because it's not "fun," as it's traditionally defined. It will be freeing and you will feel lots of weight lifted off of you. Maximum group size will be 6 people. We will begin on Saturday October 14th. And you know how I work- more than likely there will be a bonus week. There are 2 spaces left.
Investment is $197 for the 4 group calls with no 1:1 sessions with me. Early bird if you sign up before 9/30 is $97.
Investment is $497 for the 4 group calls with 4 1:1 sessions with me. Early bird if you sign up before 9/30 is $297.