The August Eclipses

Our shadow contains our "fear of who we really are" & also our "fear that no one will see/recognize who we really are." 

You know how fired up I get when people use light to extinguish or blot out the things that make them uncomfortable or that they don't want to see or acknowledge !!!  Luckily we are having a total Solar Eclipse which I am calling a Total Eclipse of the Heart.  What do I mean by that?  The parts of ourselves that we rejected, abandoned, shamed or cast out of our hearts- will rise from their tombs at the Eclipse. 

In my last newsletter I talked about "How do I know which voices to trust?"  As we move into the first of two Eclipses in August, it's time to look at the conflict between who we tell ourselves we are and who we really are. What our gifts truly are and where we've been hiding behind "ego is bad" as a way to not put ourselves fully out there.  

The New Moon in Leo on July 23rd set the stage for the Leo and Leo/Aquarius Eclipses in August. 

Shamanic astrology says the way Leo gets enlightened is to expand their ego to the point where it's so big that it is as big as God's!*  How do you feel about that?  Have you heard the platitude that ego = edging god out?  I love thinking of God with an ego. Why would shamanic astrology suggest we expand our ego to have an ego as big as God's? 

Because being around people who truly love themselves in a healthy way and who don't hide that fact can empower us to love ourselves and shine. Were you warned against shining? Shamanic teaching also says we each have a Shiny Self. One that can be hard to see or remember through all the grime, shame, fog, dross and weight that we have tried to bury it under.

I recently spent a few hours with someone whose gut and inner voice were telling her what was going on in a relationship.  Her response?  It's arrogant of me to think that I know what is going on with someone else. Yes, and you know what is going on with you. Your body is saying No. What is your body saying No to?  Know.  In the middle of Know is NO. 

Those quick flashes of knowing usually come in quite calmly.  Sometimes they come right before we fall asleep or wake up or when we are focused on work or a task.  If the knowing is about something that is going to require us to take an "uncharacteristic" action - the frenzy of denial, doubt, panic, fear, feeling sick and/or pushing it away can come in seconds later. It's important to focus on the calm you felt when you received the knowing. 

"That's not me," "I can't see myself doing that," and "That's not like me," are phrases that generally follow an invitation or call to action that will disturb the status quo of our lives.  Things can no longer go on as they have been. In July I had my students and clients list out some inciting incidents from their lives where they had an "Enough!" moment and took an uncharacteristic action.  Some of us have had plenty of "Enough!" moments but instead of taking an uncharacteristic action we swallowed or buried our feelings.  Why?  Because anger is "negative" and it's much more "positive" to be a martyr, caretaker (resentful caretaker) or self-sacrificing "look at wonderful I am because I'm doing this for you" person.

Who did you take care of in your childhood or life - even if they never asked you to- that may have seemed nice on the surface but might also have been a way to avoid living your own life?  What are you bragging about in a passive way but yet you may be refusing to "brag" about, be arrogant or own your true gifts?  If you're not going to put yourself center stage in your life- who is?

During the Eclipse all veils are gone.  A energetic wall comes down between us and the story we have been telling about who we are.  A lunar eclipse occurs when the Moon passes directly behind the Earth into the Earth's shadow. The Eclipse illuminates your shadow.  Do you remember during Brouhaha 2015 when I said "When you go on stage your Shadow comes with you?"  So much time is spent trying to get rid of or avoid our shadow rather than realizing that our shadow contains our "fear of who we really are" and also our "fear that no one will see/recognize who we really are." 

Are you ready to face your fear(s) and meet your true shadow? Is it time to stop being confused by what should I do and which of my gifts should I focus on? Are you ready to have an ego as big as god's?  What could you create when you start loving what you were told is/was shameful about you?  The veil(s) fall away and the curtain comes up this August - are you going to keep waiting in the wings or are you going to walk out onstage?

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Leo is the sign of the child in some systems of astrology.  Leo is the ruler of the Sun.  The potency of experiencing a total Solar Eclipse where the Sun "disappears" and light is snuffed out - is that it gives you a fantastic opportunity to look at "False Light" in your life.  Beware of false light. What do I mean by that?  False light shines a light on your socially accepted/approved gifts while hiding or denying your other gifts. It uses false humility as a way to hide. 

Using "light" or "positivity" to push away things that make you uncomfortable. The truth of who you are will erupt or emerge during the Eclipses IF you are not trying to push it away or have conditions on how/when it can happen.  Obviously you can't stop it from happening but you can stop yourself from seeing it. The beautiful thing is we can't really stop ourselves from feeling or knowing the truth.  It will show up in dreams, illnesses and other symbolic and poetic ways.

I love eclipses.  I have been consciously working with them since 1993 when we had an eclipse at 22 degrees of Scorpio. In general Scorpio (ruled by Pluto) astro events signify radical initiations. Between 1993-2002 I published a book, toured around reading from it and had a major success at the San Francisco Fringe Festival.  Also during those years my mother, father and marriage all died. All that death helped me see what needed to die in my life and what tombs I had to rise from. One of the tombs I had to rise from was not being able to choose me aka put myself first.  I tend to have clients who have a problem putting themselves first.  At the Eclipse it's time to say "I choose me."

I would love to have the opportunity to share my unique way of looking at Eclipses and the gifts and challenges they offer YOU with you.  I do not do one size fits all readings or sessions.  What I tell you is created specifically for you mostly using my gift of seeing in the dark + your chart, hands and energy.   I am only offering 4 of these readings.  I know how much energy they take on both my part and yours and I only want to read for people who are not going to push away the truth.  You will also receive my Eclipse calls + Brouhaha as bonuses with the reading. Please know that since June when I began writing my one woman show I am even more committed to help you find the "theme" of your life. 

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Denise

p.s.  There is one more special bonus!  You will find out about it after you purchase your reading !!!

* quote from The Shamanic Astrology Handbook by Daniel Giamario and Carolyn Brent

Movements are Fueled by Emotion- that can be Risky ...

What does it take to cross the line from fear to truly coming face to face with what I call your true self and taking them out into the world?  I told a client the other day before she went on her 2nd dismemberment journey that I wanted her to go in as if her life depended on it.  Your true self may guide you towards deep and primal places to help you remember who you are.

The cost of remembering who you are can be steep.  Especially when who you know you are does not look like anyone around you.  Are you ready to stand out and get a lot of attention?  Did you ever think that standing out is your way of being of service?  I am risking being vulnerable and putting my life on stage this fall at the San Francisco Fringe Festival.  In order to do this I need your help by May 31rst.    https://www.denisedee.com/the-ravens-way-supporter

I grew up in a place where the underlying current was one of fear.  Fear of hell, of what the neighbors would think, where your desires could lead you, wanting more than your status in life and/or of being punished.  It didn't take me long to realize that fear was an invisible fence keeping us in line and that I didn't want to stay on a path that someone else had created. How about you? 

I watched alcohol and mental illness chew up and spit out what my father, aunts and uncles tried to bury.  After a strong wave of emotion we were told they didn't mean it because they were "under the influence" or touched in the head.

It doesn't take a genius to know that being under the influence blurs the lines we may have been afraid to let ourselves cross while "sober."  That strong wave of emotion was trying to move them, to shake them up, to remind them they still had fight in them.  Or maybe that is just me wanting it to be that way.   I was chuckling with a friend the other day about sometimes even those of us who think we are "out of the box" create new boxes for ourselves.

Rebellious is a label that was created for me because I asked a lot of questions and was trying to figure out my own truth. I had a hard time letting people have an influence on me even if it could have helped me.

The question is what are you under the influence of? Who or what has the strongest influence on you?   Who are you influencing?

One of the strongest influences on my life was the Punk movement in the late 70's.  It hit home when one evening on a local new shows 3 guys appeared on the screen that I thought must be from another city.  One of them was wearing a cigarette butt for an earring.   I can't remember anything that they said.   My synapses were firing "I am going to meet them." and "My life has started."   When I met them Bill Bored (the cigarette butt earring one) let me play his drums and I was hooked.  Within a few weeks I had 20-30 songs, a band, a place to hang out and a community.  I had found a place where I was valued. 

Why am I sharing this with you now?  Because this September I will be part of the San Francisco Fringe Festival doing a one woman show (that may shift) titled Rebel Seer about my punk rock days.  It may seem hard for those of you who grew up with Riot Grrrll to believe but I was a founding member of one of the very few all female punk rock bands at that time. 

That's me with the polka dot hair in the picture at the top of this newsletter.  I wrote songs about masturbation I Love Me, looking good and staying silent Paper Doll and Two Fingers Wide.  My band was featured in Debt Begins at 20 an underground film by Stephanie Beroes.  Two Fingers Wide generally gets mentioned in every review of that film.

I see Rebel Seer in my mind's eye as a multi-media piece.  Video, photos, old recordings, interviews and live performer.   Reading that you can tell this is not going to be inexpensive to mount this production.  Here's where you come in.  I need your help.   I have created my own version of a crowd funding page that shows how you can support me and receive some cool offerings in return for your support.  If you want something that is not listed - ask me!

https://www.denisedee.com/the-ravens-way-supporter

If you have declared certain emotions inherently positive or negative, off limits, to be worked on or gotten rid of - has it ever occurred to you that you might be limiting not only your range of motion but that you may be limiting your ability to move people?

Some people see punk as a negative movement.  The rawness of the lyrics and the primal energy of the music stopped my sleepwalking.  It expelled the Snow White apple out of my throat and helped me own my bad self.  It gave me an audience and a stage from which to move people.  We laughed, we got angry, we had fun, we got jealous and we exploded.  The seeds from that small group of people spread out throughout the U.S. and internationally.   Help me continue to spread the word of the freedom that comes from owning your bad self and speaking your truth.  People need to hear it.

Denise



 

Flipping the Switch

Flipping the Switch

Fear doesn't go away.  Mastery comes in when we Face Our Fears and stop hiding behind them.

Fear doesn't go away.  Mastery comes in when we Face Our Fears and stop hiding behind them.

 

There is a voice in some of our heads that tells us we are not good enough or that what we have to say doesn’t matter.  I’ve been thinking a lot about why people know they need to change and don’t make the changes or take action.  Before I get deeper into that …

Think back over your life and call to mind a moment where you felt:

This isn’t fair, this isn’t right, this is humiliating, pissed off, unloved, abandoned, no one can hear me, no one is listening or where your truth or feelings were dismissed.

It could be something that doesn’t even seem all that huge or significant. Like when my English teacher told me the meaning I got from The Rime of The Ancient Mariner was not what the poet “meant.”  I can’t remember if I said to him “You’re not the poet, how do you know?” but that’s how I felt inside.  I also felt humiliated.  I didn’t feel that way when a math teacher told me my answer was wrong.  

The urge to be able to create meaning or have the meaning I saw be valued and honored and not shut down right away has never left me.   What drives you?

I want you to look at the significant events in your life that are still informing what you are doing/creating or want to be doing/creating and how you may be stopping yourself because it’s not an “attractive” way to present yourself. 

To make certain changes we have to flip a switch or override a voice in our heads.  That voice can be a parents or teachers.  People like to say it’s their voice or that they internalized it - yet when I get them to really listen to it - we can clearly hear whose voice it is.

That voice overrode our own instincts.  It told us:
NO that’s not true. NO that’s not happening.  That’s not the way it is.  You’re imagining that.  You’re making it up.  NO you don’t feel that way.

That voice overrode your instincts, your knowledge, your truth - it overrode almost everything you knew about yourself.

If you’re not making the changes you know you need to, if you’re not taking action- what will make you start?

There are moments in life when the switch is flipped.  When the voice is overwritten.  How many times does that happen? This is one of those times collectively.  Will it happen?  Are there enough of us willing to flip the switch?

I’ve been seeing the poison of swallowing our own wisdom. It’s a slow acting poison. It’s not “I’m going to commit suicide and die in the next few minutes or hours.” It’s a slow death holding in your wisdom, truth, tenderness, vulnerability and beauty.  It’s soulicide.

Someone told me the other day that they didn’t want to be the person who made people implode.  I understand it’s a huge responsibility to help a person shatter the mirror that has been reflecting back a false image. To help them kick their way out of a box.

To get to the point where they are screaming or crying
I’m tired of being humiliated. I’m tired of being shamed. I’m tired of being told that’s not true.

I’m tired of hearing:
Why can’t you just be good?  Why can’t you talk/look/act like so and so? Why can’t you be like your sister?  Why can’t you ____________?

Then we beat ourselves up with “Why can’t I?”  What is your “Why can’t I ______?”

Eventually something is going to snap.  Bear me with and picture how much shit you are holding in.  You know what the secret is, the thing that some of us never say out loud?

How much we want to be in a place where we can break down.  To let everything that we have been holding in- out.   To FEEL.  To feel how painful it is to be holding in your feelings, your voice and your truth.   The way you see things.

I shared a story on my Punk Infusion call about how I chose to stop eating after being humiliated by being called a whore and a fat ass by different boys in front of my classmates.  I chose to disappear.   Things had happening long before those moments to get me to a place where I chose to fight and then to give up fighting.  I bring this up now because I want you to look at:

What am I starving or trying to starve to death in myself?  

What am or how am I over feeding or over nourishing one part of myself that may be making the other parts feel starved?

In a starved or overfed or numb state we don’t have the energy to flip that switch.  

“The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn.”   -  David Russell

It’s time to burn some bridges.  We can burn it down in a really great session with a mentor, reader or energy worker.   Then we can feel like “What now?” “What do I do next?”

We can burn it down when we paint, play music, speak, write or when we go hear someone speak, to a dance performance, concert, or a kick ass play. 

When you are so moved or devastated by what you just experienced that you can’t even get up from your seat because you don’t want to return to the world as it is.

You don’t want to go back to the world as it is because you have just experienced that world as it truly is inside the mind of a person who trusts, values and gives voice to what has meaning for them.

I can’t go back to the way things were.   The switch has been flipped.  

What do you want to create right now to help people wake up to their voice, to their truth, to help the override those false voices in their head?

What movements or events did that for you?

Picture my working class catholic childhood.  Where some of the top values were hard work, responsibility and obedience.  In which the possibilities for women were marriage, children and/or a service job.  Or going to the convent.   

What flipped the switch for me in 1976-1977 was punk rock.   The override switch flipped on and and I said “F*ck It” and then “F*ck Yes!” I can be in my own band.  20-30 songs burst out of me.   A bridge was burned and a bridge was crossed.  There was no going back.

Except that’s the way I’ve been telling the story up until now.   When I told this story on my Punk Infusion call (for supporters of my play)  I started bawling.   

All that sadness is still there.  All those years of holding my feelings in.  Of starving myself.  Starving for love, affection and touch.  To have what I said matter.  To matter.   Starving for attention.  

I’m not playing around here. I want to flip that switch in you.  To flip that switch for the audience at my play and to keep flipping it for myself.  Presenting a piece of writing or artwork means we have to get vulnerable.  Being vulnerable can cause implosions and explosions.   Tender feelings can cause as many implosions/explosions as “negative” feelings can.  The walls are coming down.

It’s easier to flip the switch when the walls are down.   The switch of where we are in our lives right now.  What we are holding in that needs to be expressed, to be let out.  

Raw emotion moves people and we can’t control what happens when people are moved.   

I bawled and the overwhelming feeling for me during punk rock was of freedom.  I never felt so free in my life as I did writing lyrics and pounding on the drums.  Thank you for supporting me and seeing the value of Switch Flipping. For knowing how important it is to get this message to people who might not be able to do it for themselves.  It takes a lot of energy.

Whatever happened that that overrode the voice in your head that told you that you weren’t good enough, that what you had to say didn’t matter - I ask that you share this with your audience.   That’s the way we are going to keep flipping switches.   I am being vulnerable about my feelings and my life.  

Punk wasn’t about being vulnerable.  We had a ‘face’ our own kind of facade even though we said we were tearing those down.   It was still powerful and forever impacted my life.

That was then, this is now so the story I will be sharing will be different than the one I told back then.  Together and in the spaces between those times- they are my truth.   

Flip the Switch.  


 

What have you stopped from growing until you get your way?

Have you been feeling stuck, overwhelmed, angry or like you just can't see what your next move is?  Are you asking different people and getting lots of different advice? 

Today is the Virgo Full Moon.  Sitting here on the cusp of spring makes me think of Persephone coming back up from the Underworld.   As Connie Kaplan writes there is a pre-patriarchal telling of the Persephone story that says Persephone went into the Underworld voluntarily because she was fascinated by the roots of wheat.   What are you being asked to get to the Root of this Full Moon?

Demeter - Persephone's mother laid a curse on the land to stop things from growing until she gets her daughter back.  Heroic Mother?  Control Freak?  Jealous or Afraid of Persephone following her own desires and wisdom?  What does your Demeter look like?  Let's play with this ...

What have I stopped from growing until I get my way?

Persephone wanting to see the roots of wheat made me think about all of us who weren't satisfied with the answers our parents, teachers, tribe or religion gave us.  One of my clients is a master at taking things apart and seeing how they work or why they don't work.  One is a master at making connections that other people would not notice.  Another is a master at asking questions and seeing things differently.  Were these gifts appreciated in their childhoods?  Not necessarily.

The moment where someone tried to cut us off from our truth lives in our root.  It lives in our body.  People may have been able to keep you from speaking your truth- but they are not able to cut you off from your truth.  Only you can do that.   On one of my recent calls we journeyed to younger versions of ourselves who felt stifled, unseen, unheard and unloved.   My guides instructed us to never ever bring back a part of ourselves if we are not going to keep a promise to it.  We can not say to that self "I'm going to live/speak my truth" and then not do it because that self will turn on us.

There's only so many times you can tell your Snake* guide - I will be the one who walks with you in the world with no Shame -  and then turn your back on the very gifts and qualities that make you qualified to carry Snake medicine before Snake lashes out, withers or leaves.   (*This could apply to any of your guides or gifts)

What someone else told you is not lovable, "bad" or "evil" may have made you feel ashamed of yourself and your gifts.  Are you ready to unmask your bad self with me?  

http://www.denisedee.com/unmask-your-bad-self

My new logo and tagline have put this aspect of my genius at the forefront.  Rebel is part of who I am and rebel is also a mask.  My genius is getting people to the Core of their wisdom and to own their "bad" self.  My genius is at getting people to their truth.  I can't necessarily get them to live it - that is their job - yet I can see through the masks.  Are you ready to claim the part of you that you were told was "bad" and start making money being ALL of who you are? 

If you paid attention to the Eclipses in February you may have noticed that you are being asked to see things as they really are and to do things differently.  Why aren't we seeing things as they really are?   Because we are seeing through layers of protection that we put on so no one would ever be able to hurt us again.

Last week on a call we stood in the energy of the All-Knowing and All-Seeing Eye.  I see this as a symbol for our own Wisdom.  Almost nothing is scarier than a person standing in, speaking and living by their own Wisdom because they can not be controlled.  

If you were raised with the idea that God, the Divine, Santa or "someone" is watching over you, looking out for you or watching everything you do - how did that make you feel?  Some people were comforted by this.  I have found it to be nearly impossible to create with someone looking over my shoulder.  And that someone can include myself if I get into second-guessing, criticizing, censoring before I've really even started creating.

Until March 31rst - I am offering you an opportunity to have a Mastery reading with me and save $500.  I will create at least 1 collage for you as part of this reading. 

These readings are intense.  I will be in your Psyche for at least 72 hours.  What needs to be seen by you will come to the surface.  This is not a reading to take lightly.   Why do you need me to make a collage for you?  Because you may be using a filter to keep yourself from seeing what you don't want to see. 

We can't always get our own answers.   The reading will present material to you that you could easily use to create an offering for your clients,  help you with your brand or tagline or to show you your direction for the next 6 months.  Purchase a Mastery reading with me before March 31rst and save $500.

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I realized the other day that because I have so many guides that can see in the dark that I have gotten use to seeing outlines and shapes.  I do not need to see every detail before I begin to speak or create.   I will utilize this gift as a tool to help bring inimages that will cut through your "logic" "needing to know every detail" and get you in deeper connection with your Soul, your guides and your gifts.

My guides want me to remind you that a Visionary does not always know their entire vision.   Waiting until you know every detail is soul-killing and quite possibly why you are not making as much money as you would like.  

Unmask Your Bad Self!

Denise

2017 - The Year of Mastery

What are you ignoring, fearing or hoping that somehow you can "get out of" saying or doing it? 

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I'm also starting a Mercury Rx 30 day creativity challenge on 12/19.  I realize it is the holidays- so I will keep the e-mails for that challenge under 10.  I will post the assignments on the Year of Success members page.

What are the words that come to your mind when you hear Mastery?   In some realms mastery is associated with control.    I was going to offer a program about emotional mastery and was informed that I was not an "expert" because I didn't have control over my emotions.   To me - emotional mastery means expressing ALL of our emotions- not just the "positive" ones. 

Control means nothing unless we are also able to lose control.   Think about a singer who breaks down on stage.   If the whole performance is them breaking down- that can be cathartic and it can also be a train wreck.   

What's an important element that goes along with Control?  Trust.  Am I losing control to blow things up?   Am I trying to blow things up in a way that will bring about change?  Or am I blowing things up in a way that will bring about loneliness, isolation and prove 'I knew I couldn't trust them?"    We have to be very intimate with ourselves and with our gifts to "master" them.  2017 is the Year of Mastery. 

http://www.denisedee.com/blog/gifts-for-the-rebellious

How much time did you spend in 2016 trying to change something about yourself or another person?  How much time did you spend time to accept something about yourself? I've been speaking a lot to people about this concept of "accepting."  In the end whether you accept it or not- you are still being called to do You.  Any part of ourselves that we hide until we "accept" it -  is going to blow things up internally or externally.  

Any part of ourselves that we put under "critical" scrutiny may withdraw, shut down or sulk.   How about we start being curious about these parts of ourselves?   What is the difference between being accepted and being rejected if we are self-rejecting our gifts in order to be "accepted" or until these gifts are "accepted."   If you haven't noticed yet- acceptance can come many years later - if at all.   Where or how do you want to be accepted? 

What are you ignoring, fearing or hoping against hope that somehow you can "get out of" using or doing it? 

Not going to happen.  Did you notice these parts of yourself (or other people) in your face around the Full Moon?  If not, you'll be receiving regular visits (in dreamtime or awake) from what you've been trying to ignore from now until the end of January.  The destruction we were asked to do in 2012-2015 was not completed.  Are you willing to step up and do this work with me now?   Immolation is going to occur in 2017. 

We'Moon declared 2017 the Year of the Fire Phoenix.  You all know that my guides declared 2017 -  The Year of Mastery.   Mastery my friends, involves Risk.   You are not going to master anything unless you are willing to take risks.   Fear is often an arrow pointing us in a direction where we are being called to take a risk.  To be all in.   

I'm asking those of you that were intrigued by and/or clicked on my Year of Mastery program to take a risk.  Be all in.  

You can join me for 2017The Year of Mastery.

January will be focused on TRUST.  Trust is crucial in Magic and in relationships -  with ourselves, with others and with the elements of magic and ritual. This is not child's play.

The Year of Mastery is 2 calls a month in which I channel through elements of Magic and Wisdom that each of us are being called to Master in 2017. You receive 1 - 15 minute 1:1 session with me per season.  I will channel directly for you what you need to hear that month and we will strategize together on action steps.  If you are not ready, willing and able to take action- DO NOT sign up for this series. 

We will have one work day a month.  You will send me proof of the work that you completed - this can be writing, art, gardening, clutter clearing, disposal etc.  (I will check in with everyone to make sure I select a day that works for everyone.) 

http://www.denisedee.com/blog/gifts-for-the-rebellious

Denise

To those of you who already signed up for the Year of Mastery- thrilled and delighted to have you join in !    I will be sending out the call schedule today.   You will also receive as a bonus my orientation call from Journey Through The Hands 2017 which I did at the Gemini Full Moon.  Gemini rules the hands and is also a lover of questions :)    I will not so much be giving you information during JTYH as doing deep energetic explorations of some of the markings in the hands. I'm also starting a Mercury Rx 30 day creativity challenge on 12/19.  I realize it is the holidays- so I will keep the e-mails for that challenge under 10.  I will post the assignments on the Year of Success members page.

What are the words that come to your mind when you hear Mastery?   In some realms mastery is associated with control.    I was going to offer a program about emotional mastery and was informed that I was not an "expert" because I didn't have control over my emotions.   To me - emotional mastery means expressing ALL of our emotions- not just the "positive" ones. 

Control means nothing unless we are also able to lose control.   Think about a singer who breaks down on stage.   If the whole performance is them breaking down- that can be cathartic and it can also be a train wreck.   

What's an important element that goes along with Control?  Trust.  Am I losing control to blow things up?   Am I trying to blow things up in a way that will bring about change?  Or am I blowing things up in a way that will bring about loneliness, isolation and prove 'I knew I couldn't trust them?"    We have to be very intimate with ourselves and with our gifts to "master" them.  2017 is the Year of Mastery. 

http://www.denisedee.com/blog/gifts-for-the-rebellious

How much time did you spend in 2016 trying to change something about yourself or another person?  How much time did you spend time to accept something about yourself? I've been speaking a lot to people about this concept of "accepting."  In the end whether you accept it or not- you are still being called to do You.  Any part of ourselves that we hide until we "accept" it -  is going to blow things up internally or externally.  

Any part of ourselves that we put under "critical" scrutiny may withdraw, shut down or sulk.   How about we start being curious about these parts of ourselves?   What is the difference between being accepted and being rejected if we are self-rejecting our gifts in order to be "accepted" or until these gifts are "accepted."   If you haven't noticed yet- acceptance can come many years later - if at all.   Where or how do you want to be accepted? 

What are you ignoring, fearing or hoping against hope that somehow you can "get out of" using or doing it? 

Not going to happen.  Did you notice these parts of yourself (or other people) in your face around the Full Moon?  If not, you'll be receiving regular visits (in dreamtime or awake) from what you've been trying to ignore from now until the end of January.  The destruction we were asked to do in 2012-2015 was not completed.  Are you willing to step up and do this work with me now?   Immolation is going to occur in 2017. 

We'Moon declared 2017 the Year of the Fire Phoenix.  You all know that my guides declared 2017 -  The Year of Mastery.   Mastery my friends, involves Risk.   You are not going to master anything unless you are willing to take risks.   Fear is often an arrow pointing us in a direction where we are being called to take a risk.  To be all in.   

I'm asking those of you that were intrigued by and/or clicked on my Year of Mastery program to take a risk.  Be all in.  

You can join me for 2017-  The Year of Mastery .

January will be focused on TRUST.  Trust is crucial in Magic and in relationships -  with ourselves, with others and with the elements of magic and ritual. This is not child's play.

The Year of Mastery is 2 calls a month in which I channel through elements of Magic and Wisdom that each of us are being called to Master in 2017. You receive 1 - 15 minute 1:1 session with me per season.  I will channel directly for you what you need to hear that month and we will strategize together on action steps.  If you are not ready, willing and able to take action- DO NOT sign up for this series. 

We will have one work day a month.  You will send me proof of the work that you completed - this can be writing, art, gardening, clutter clearing, disposal etc.  (I will check in with everyone to make sure I select a day that works for everyone.) 

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Denise

To those of you who already signed up for the Year of Mastery- thrilled and delighted to have you join in !    I will be sending out the call schedule today.   You will also receive as a bonus my orientation call from Journey Through The Hands 2017 which I did at the Gemini Full Moon.  Gemini rules the hands and is also a lover of questions :)    I will not so much be giving you information during JTYH as doing deep energetic explorations of some of the markings in the hands. 

Are you one of the 10% of People who ...

I'm still energized from the Raven Full Moon Eclipse that took place on Friday. I shared with you in my last newsletter that I hadn't been having fun for awhile. That all changed as soon as my feet touched ground in San Francisco.  Check out my Silver Mercury boots and Raven.



The Eclipse (as they tend to do if you are actively working with the energy not just "feeling" it) removed the clouds around my next steps.  What happened for you during the Eclipses? 

Don't you love those moments where the questioning, wondering and seesawing back and forth ends and you make a decision? 

Thursday night I saw "The Mathematician at Play" by Gregg Tobo at the SF Fringe Festival.  I chose to see this show because math is not an area I am gifted in and I wanted to shake things up and go see something different.

It was the perfect show to see!  Gregg spoke about the 4th dimension in math.  He said in the 3rd dimension we commonly think there are 6 directions -  Backwards, Forward, Left, Right, Above and Below.  In the 4th dimension there are also Ana and Kata. 

I have no idea if Greg Tobo knew we were in the midst of a Mercury Rx but I was thrilled to hear that my view of Mercury as being outside of the "natural" laws of time and space and bringing in all kinds of opportunities was being supported by these additional directions known to people who are willing to step way out of the box. 

Have you given yourself the freedom to move completely not only "out of the box" but in any direction you choose?  Have you moved outside of logical and linear during this Mercury Rx?  All kinds of Amazing has happened for me since this Rx began in August.

One of my first innovative inventions as a child was "Motion Potion" it was created to allow me to manipulate time.  What were you doing early in your life that gave you a clue as to your Life Purpose or Gift Markings?  

The Fringe Festival inspired me to create Brouhaha in 2014.  I love having multiple low priced plays to choose from over the 2 weeks the Fringe Festival runs for.  They have their own daily newspaper!  I saw 6 plays at the Fringe this year in 3 days.

I don't know about you but I go through periods of intake and output.  Some people beat themselves up when they feel tired or unmotivated. I go out and shoot photos, go to plays or explore new landscapes.

Brouhaha is a place to come to be inspired and to be part of a community of people who are on the cutting edge.  My life purpose is Innovator.  Baeth said it is one of the rarest purposes. I draw in a lot of super exciting unusual and way out there people.  You are being called right now to go beyond the edge of what is comfortable for you.  So am I.  

I sent out a newsletter on September 15th inviting you to Brouhaha.  Only 10% of you took the leap and purchased an All Access pass to Brouhaha.  The same percentage of people with gift markings.  10% of people are also left handed.  10% of people take the alternate path.

Less than 10% of people regularly take action and inspire other people. Are you ready to join the inspirational action takers at Brouhaha?

Brouhaha like the Fringe is not a slickly produced event. I'll be walking the props in down the center aisle. You will see what goes on backstage and behind the scenes. Recordings will screw up. I'll mispronounce words.  We'll leap and sometimes soar.  I am willing to be the Fool.  No one will be pretending to be someone they are not because I will call them out on it.  

All the workshop leaders will be giving you the How To - not just giving you tips to sell you into a 10k program or to make you feel like you're "resisting" if you don't want to buy something.  I was lmao off the other day at people marketing giving you "permission" to do something. (I might have done it myself at one point on the advice of a business coach.) 

Being given permission might feel good even wonderful but it makes very few people actually take action.  There is no magic outside of you.  We will help you decide to activate the MAGIC in you.  YOU are the EXPERT of your own life and you may still need some kickass people to help motivate you. 

It's so easy to give in to that voice in our heads saying "I can't" , "I don't want to!" or "It's too hard!"

I both hate and love my trainer when he is clapping his hands and yelling at us-
Don't give up! Mindset people, mindset! You can do it !!!

Less than 10% of people take action and inspire people.  What do you need to decide and take action on? I can help! 

Denise

Come Play With Me

Yay! You're here and ready to go on this Journey with me. Not speaking our truth is the #1 way we abandon and betray ourselves. This includes speaking the truth about how we feel. During this time with me I will lovingly challenge you to FEEL all your feelings especially the deeply buried ones and the ones you may have been shamed for having in the past. I am not going to let you b.s. yourself or me. We will get to the core of your deeply rooted emotions so you can be Deeply Rooted in Your Sense of Self. Remember the image of Snow White with the "Poison Apple" in her throat? As Isha Lerner says in the Inner Child Tarot - no one can take that apple out of Snow White's throat but herself. This Apple is Wisdom that the Tribe insisted you swallow and under that is the Wisdom of Your Body. I will be encouraging you to let yourself "let go" during this course in the same way singing or acting coaches instruct their students to let go and lose control so the audience can feel the EMOTION.

The How:

4* calls in which I will guide you to the parts of your body in which deeply rooted emotions are buried or stuck. You will feel these emotions and send me e-mails letting me know what comes up. Talking about feelings is not the same as FEELING our feelings and can keep us stuck in our heads.

Making Collages. My #1 tool for seeing what I might not want to or be able to see. Your subconscious will reveal directly to you - what messages have not been getting through to you.

Creating rituals for yourself. You will have me to call upon so you are not doing an empty ritual that looks or feels good but does not STIR YOUR SOUL.

Creating and Choosing an empowering story that gives you a sense of purpose.

Keeping an Emotion Journal.

We are going to begin this on March 21rst. We will have a group call every 10 days

The Investment:

$497 investment. 4 - 30 minute 1:1 sessions with me + 4 group calls. Bonuses: *** What's Your Spirit Animal book + deck by Kelly Eckert. If you have this book and deck already you can choose either Inner Child Tarot or Voyager Tarot. These are the decks I work with the most. *** 4 - 15 minute hot seats with me on any area of your hands. I will send you out an inking kit. *** My newsletter and 1 call a month over the next 12 months starting on April 21rst.

$297 investment. 2- 30 minute 1:1 sessions with me + 4 group calls. Bonus: *** My newsletter and 1 call a month over the next 12 months starting on April 21rst.

$97 investment 4 group calls. No 1:1 sessions with me. If you decide you need 1:1 sessions with me you will be able to purchase them at a special rate of $97 during the 4 weeks of Deeply Rooted.